Hello Friends. We have made it to another Sunday. This is the last day of March, 2019. I can’t believe it. We are truly zooming through time at insane speeds. Grab your favorite Sunday drink of choice, and let’s chat about how this past week, the last week, of March went.. And while at it, do some reflection on the month as a whole.
This past week was a combination of absolute madness and hope. I have been on the fence about remaining on Active Duty or separating to focus on my education, be a Mom and just feel normal, for a while now. If I was in the Air Force under any of the numerous administrative types of jobs, there’d be no question at all about staying in or not. Given that I am a military police officer though, I sing a totally different song. Seeing women in my career field, making a career out of this job isn’t far fetched but they still get the utmost respect from me. My perspective began to change when my kids started getting older and once I really started taking help for my mental health seriously. I don’t want to jinx anything so I am going to standby on putting it out there, but I received a little beacon of hope this week. Shortly after that, someone tried to dim my sparkle just a tad, but I am keeping faith in the system and staying positive.
“I closed my notebook and sat in the cafe thinking about real time. Is it time uninterrupted? Only the present comprehended? Are our thoughts nothing but passing Trains, no stops, devoid of dimension, whizzing by massive posters with repeating images? Catching a fragment from a window seat, yet another fragment from the next identical frame? If I write in the present yet digress, is that still real time? Real time, I reasoned, cannot be divided into sections like the numbers on the face of a clock. If I write about the past as I simultaneously dwell in the present, am I still in real time? Perhaps there is no past or future, only the perpetual present that contains this trinity of memory. I looked out into the street and noticed the light changing. Perhaps the sun had slipped behind a cloud. Perhaps time had slipped away.”
I was very much in the mood for a memoir this past week, so I started M Train by Patti Smith. I listened to the audiobook and occasionally followed along with my physical copy and I remember when I hit this particular quote, I replayed this specific part over and over again. I thought it was absolutely beautiful and so meaningful as a person obsessed with time. I love when I read a memoir and can tell that the writer truly loves the craft of writing. That’s the vibe I get from Patti Smith. So much of this book transported me to the cafe table across from her as she sat and journaled. I loved it.
This month I found two, new to me coffee shops. Estate Coffee and Brown Coffee Co. I can’t recommend it enough. Find a place where you live that illuminates all the cozy vibes. Get up a little early and go with your current read. I have a very short list of what I do for my mom time, but frequenting my local coffee shops with what I’m currently reading is at the top. From Estate Coffee, I have fell in love with with Kentucky Smoked Latte and I loved the atmosphere I found in Brown Coffee Co. The Barista broke down the menu there being that it was my first visit. She was super sweet and we chatted quite a bit before I left.
This month was also the month of see ya later’s.
Two of my previous co-workers are headed to Las Vegas for their next assignments and my previous supervisor is staying here in San Antonio, but going back to her regular job. I am so excited for all of them and this new phase of life for them and their families.
I attended this really amazing Women’s History Lunch our Wing Commander put on for us ladies across the installation. She did a phenomenal job. The panel of women we got to chat with and ask questions were fantastic. I laughed. I cried. I laughed and cried some more. It was great. It really made me appreciate the tribe I’ve found that much more. Seriously, nothing beats having a group of girlfriends you can turn to.
Reading plans. Id really love to start April off with a clean slate reading wise, but won’t stress myself out if that doesn’t happen. In April though, I would love to get the number of books sitting on my shelf that have been sent to me cut down and mix in poetry with April being Poetry month. I have so many poetry rereads planned and a couple of new collections I’ve hauled and want to read too. This weekend my goal has been to finish The Girl He Used to Know, which I am adoring. I can’t wait to share my thoughts with you.
Lastly, I finished my Air Force Physical Training test. Oh my goodness, I can’t even begin to explain how great it feels to have the stress of that out of the way. I definitely need to put more effort into working on my physical fitness..there just doesn’t seem to be enough hours in the day sometimes. My health and physical well being however, will become a higher priority, because although I passed, I could’ve done a lot better than what I did. I know I have it in me. It is so easy to make excuses. So easy to stay in a rut. Then when the time comes to bust your butt, you find yourself wishing you would’ve put in more work. Eh, I don’t want to feel like that anymore, next time.
That is my week, and thoughts on March in a nutshell. I hope this month was good to you. Take care of yourselves, and until next time, xo.