Hate To Want You by Alisha Rai
Avon; July 2017
My Rating: 4/5
So I am going to be honest here–I have picked this book up at my local book store probably ten times and each time have talked myself out of buying it. I have a crazy tendency to stay where I’m comfortable and I expected this novel to take me WAY out of my comfort zone. Needless to say Friends.. that is exactly what it did. And it felt so good..I loved it!
“I believe you love me. I just don’t know if you’ll be able to stay with me. Out there, in the real world. And I—I deserve that.” As she said the words, she felt them lifting her spirits and her self-confidence. “I deserve that,” she repeated. “When shit goes down, storybook princes are unreliable. I need a man who’s going to stand by my side in the cold light of day. I can’t be someone’s secret anymore. I can’t carry the emotional load all by myself.”
One night. No one will know.
That was the deal. Every year, Livvy Kane and Nicholas Chandler would share one perfect night of illicit pleasure. The forbidden hours let them forget the tragedy that haunted their pasts—and the last names that made them enemies.
Until the night she didn’t show up.
Now Nicholas has an empire to run. He doesn’t have time for distractions and Livvy’s sudden reappearance in town is a major distraction. She’s the one woman he shouldn’t want . . . so why can’t he forget how right she feels in his bed?
Livvy didn’t come home for Nicholas, but fate seems determined to remind her of his presence—and their past. Although the passion between them might have once run hot and deep, not even love can overcome the scandal that divided their families.
Being together might be against all the rules . . . but being apart is impossible.
Okay Friends, there are so many reasons why I feel like you should read this book and at this moment I could probably go on and on with those reasons–but I think I am going to try my hardest to narrow it down to just 5 reasons why..so here goes:
- Family Drama: I am not a big drama person and sometimes family drama can be a complete turn off for me if not done right but trust me, it serves it’s purpose in this book. Livvy and Nicholas are both dealing with family issues on top of their issues with each other. The family drama they both deal with individually as well as the different ways it affects their relationship just make you even more sympathetic towards them. My heart truly went out to both of them just as much as individuals as it did for them trying to figure out their feelings for each other.
- Mental Illness: I went into this book having no idea that the main character had a mental illness. Livvy has battled depression all of her life and you as the reader see her using tools she has obviously gained from being in therapy to reword how she talks to herself–pulling herself away from possibly sliding back into her depression. I loved that. Being someone who is currently seeing a therapist for depression and anxiety, once I realized that, that was what she was doing and why, it shed a lot of light on why she kept pushing Nicholas away (people don’t always understand or know how to handle your depression) it made her more relatable and made me root for her even more.
- Friendship: The only real friendship that we see in this book is between Livvy and her sister in law Sadia. Although we don’t see Sadia much in the story, when she is around I really appreciated how much she had Livvy’s back. She was so protective of her. In today’s world where women are constantly pitted against each other, it is definitely refreshing to read about those who have a ride or die love for one another.
- The Angst: Hearing about angst in romances prior to my first romance read was the thing I made up in my mind would irritate me the most. I couldn’t fathom the thought of reading hundreds of pages where the conflict was that two people had feelings for each other and all they had to do was communicate it and the story would be over. In Hate To Want You you know Livvy and Nicholas want each other. Between their inner monologues and hot steamy rendezvous there is no doubt about it–but you also know they both love each other and are too stubborn at first to admit to themselves and then finally the other person. It is truly a beautiful journey you witness watching that happen. I’m not going to lie, once those feelings and built up emotions started coming out..I cried! It was like…FINALLY! But it wasn’t the “finally,” because all of the back and forth felt unnecessary. You really saw Livvy and Nicholas work for where they were at the end of the story.
- Two People who Never stopped loving each other: Lastly but not least, I am such a sucker for the story line of having two people who are and have always been meant to be together. Or the love that never really went away. Livvy and Nicholas were together as teenagers until one day Nicholas breaks up with her. Without Nicholas knowing, their breakup threw Livvy into a deep depression that was the darkest one she’d experienced. They grow up and eventually come into their one night a year agreement. They both played this role like they were okay with that when all along they knew they still truly loved each other and wanted more. I loved how towards the end they were able to still hold onto parts of their earlier relationship that brought them to the present–like meeting at their favorite spot–but also knew they weren’t kids anymore. Now they are adults with family members who wouldn’t approve of them being together again, there would be problems, they would be facing the real world together now..but they both know they want to face all of that together. They finally both understand and believe that if you really love someone, you fight for them.
Alright, so narrowing my reasons why you should read this book down to only five reasons wasn’t the hardest thing I’ve done but I could still go on and on. I’ll leave you with this: if you want a sizzling, second chance romance with some crazy family drama mixed in there..go read this book. Safe to say that I have already placed a hold for book two in with the library. I can’t wait to read what’s next.
If you have any second chance romance recommendations for me Friends, please send them my way. I hope all is well with you wherever you are.
Married Mom of 3. Military girl. Reader. Falling in love with romance novels.